so it's normal that during exams, and when you're trying to study and focus, the most distracting thing is NOT your computer, NOT facebook, NOT your friends and NOT any other thing but THOUGHTS themselves. yes THOUGHTS. not THOUGHTS about your studying of course. THOUGHTS about every other thing other than your study haha!

especially thoughts about people. thoughts of what they've done or not done (even the tiny little things that were probably insignificant), thoughts of what they're thinking in doing or not doing those things (even though all they may be thinking about is probably their studies)..

all those thoughts. when you probably never even crossed half their minds. and you're just like an idiot undergoing self-destruction haha! and what makes you even more idiotic is the fact that you know those are idiotic thoughts but for some reason they just keep their ass firmly stuck to the base of your mind refusing to budge.

but it was oh-so-comforting when my friend told me "YEA YEA YEA!! I KNOW!!" omigoodness it never felt so good to know that you're not a nutcase.

but well I've got to say, this semester, maybe due to the lack of dramas, it's been a rather quiet studying period in my mind. the "background thoughts" as my friend calls it, have been rather well self-contained. clap clap. no drama is good. your "background thoughts" have less things to feed on.

anyway. 3 papers over. 2 more to go. then I can take a break. although I must say this semester has been really one long break-but-because-we're-in-the-middle-of-the-sem-so-I-must-study-bits-and-pieces-while-I-just-keeping-having-fun-and-taking-breaks. the only time I did realy serious studying was like the past 2 weeks.

but yea even the past 2 weeks, studying had to be shared with the "background thoughts' which were still very much present, albeit much toned-down.

zzzzzzzzz.

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