Friday, May 15, 2009 - 6:04 PM
Looking forward to the humidity and heat
it's been quite some time.. haven't had the time or the discipline to update.. the furthest I got to was the www.blogger.com page.. but well today something pushed the inertia out of the way for me to update.. a short one no doubt, considering I've got quite some lectures to catch up with..
but right now, we're 5 weeks to going back! I'm so psyched up I'm actually looking forward to the exams because that just means nearer to going-home day! can't wait to go back to friends and family.. where I don't have to force a smile on my face every day even when I am weary, where I can be truly myself without the fear of being judged, where I can love and be loved in return.. HOME!! omigoodness.. that just sounded so cheesy.. hahaha! but embarrassingly, that's really how I feel.. seriously, I don't want to bitch.. and I hate the fact that it happens to be an area of weakness in me.. so the more I have to actively suppress it.. so now, I am working on completely eliminating the act of bitching.. hopefully it will soon progress to eliminating the entire thought of it..
I mean who cares if someone always does something to you that makes you wish like strangling him/her.. bitching about it won't make him/her stop doing it.. you know, I remember a quote: "If a problem has no solution, then it's probably not a problem to solved but a fact to be dealt with." so yea just got to deal with it.. just that at the same time, we can just console ourselves with the knowledge that he/she obviously doesn't give a damn about you/your feelings/your life.. so yea we just deal with it..
so well, it takes the presence of I-thought-I-knew-you-but-ok-maybe-not "friends" to bring out the real important people in your life.. so I guess we can give thanks for everyone, friends or the "bb" friends..
but well, I love you guys! coming home soon!!! can't wait! =)
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