Saturday, May 30, 2009 - 10:28 AM
Pre-Exam Mayhem
yesterday was a day of slacking.. seriously, felt a bit funny as people all around us were studying while we watched 2.5 movies.. doesn't make things easier because that 0.5 movie is now hanging around in my mind and I hate it when that happens.. but we'll see what we should do about that..
yesterday, we had our end of semester continual assessment.. it was the first time I was still busy trying to finish reading all my notes the night before the exam.. bad bad bad.. but never mind there should always be a first time for everything right? as long as it doesn't happen again.. =S
and yesterday I learn a few interesting albeit random and useless things.. and they may or may not be actually just complete crap.. An example below..
Did you know?
When the English settlers landed in Australia, they noticed an animal that jumped extremely high and far. They asked the Aboriginal people using body language and signs, trying to ask them about this animal. The Aboriginal people responded with "Kan Ghu Ru". So the English people adopted the name kangaroo. What the Aboriginal people were really trying to say was, "Kan Ghu Ru" which meant "We don't understand you."
hmmm tonight we'll be going out for dinner to celebrate someone's birthday.. We're going to somewhere we've never gone before.. so I'm glad for a change finally from Uncle Billy's, Hawkers, Kimchi House.. HK BBQ today.. hahaha.. don't mean to be bitchy (just being honest and blunt) but seriously there are a few people whom I hope I would not be sitting at the same table with.. people with stomachs so big they're like bottomless pits.. actually it's more like someone.. later order so much that we'll end up having to pay for him/her/them to eat their king's share.. ok fine I know it still comes out bitchy but ah heck!
last night had a good talk with ruth! I miss you ruthy baby! I really never knew how great and important a friend you are to me until after I left.. as in last time we'll like gila around and stuff but didn't realise you'll be one of those people I think about when I get disappointed by other friends.. now you're one of my "Singapore Friends Army"that I think about and know I can rely one everytime I feel a bit sad/angry by what happens here!
alright then I better get to doing somethine productive today..
love ya loads!
Monday, May 25, 2009 - 5:42 PM
teeheehee
I came here with the intention to write about something.. but you know what, I'm not going to write about it haha! because I don't want to waste my time talking about it..
instead, I'll just talk about the good stuff =)
I'm glad to have finished my GP visits and patient visits. I've really learnt so much through these visits and they've made me feel like going for more visits than that required by my curriculum just so that I can continue to be exposed to the real world out there.. I mean when we study, go for lectures, go for labs and tutorials, it's easy to for a moment forget that there is a whole world out there beyond our textbooks and classrooms and exams.. like I can get so caught up in completing assignments and studying for tests that I forget how I should be learning and remembering, not studying and memorising.. my GP visits especially gave me a chance to put to practice so many things I've learnt..
the first visit and first patient had hemachromatosis.. and I thought to myself "ooh what luck that I recently learnt about that or I'll be completely clueless about what's going on now.." then slowly as more patients came and went, I began to realise,"Hey these things that I'm listening to and watching are things we've all learnt in class!" so like for once I remembered we're not doing an A-level course where we're just studying for an exam.. we're doing a freaking uni course where we're learning skills to be used in whatever field we'd be working in.. it was like some kind of enlightenment "so there IS a purpose for my learning after all!" hahaha ok enough with the drama effects..
but in my second visit, there were mostly musculoskeletal and neural cases which we'll be covering next semester.. that got me contemplating the interesting thought that the 1st visit was a "see what you've learnt so far" and the 2nd visit was a "now, see what more you don't know and what you're about to learn in the near future"..
and the patient I visited.. she's a darling.. I will go back and visit one day.. just to talk and keep her company..
thank You Lord for taking care of every little detail of my life and taking full charge of my learning and my life! Just help me not be a walking contradiction and a hypocrite but someone who gives her life to serve You in the way You want me to..
Amen =)
Sunday, May 24, 2009 - 1:44 PM
Under all that facade
maybe there's nothing there at all..
I wonder what really is care and concern? Is it something you announce proudly to the world? or something you do at the quiet of your own time?
and what is it about judging and being judged? who are we to judge and be judged? and the irony is that people who judge, are often the ones who lament so loudly about being judged. but then, making this statement just makes me a "judger", doesn't it?
it's just that sometimes I just fall back into my old illusion, thinking that maybe, just maybe, there is indeed something under all that.. some kind of warmth stirring.. before the illusion spits me back into the real world and I realise then and again, that there IS nothing there.. mind you, this is not about romance so stop thinking down those tracks.. but funny how the human mind tends to just tread along those paths..
so when A starts thinking maybe B does have something in there and begins to open up, B has to start thinking that A likes him/her? is life all about hormones? is that all human relationship and interaction is about? do you not get it that A may just need a friend?
but ah well, I shan't go further into it.. I'll work at removing that freaking plank from my eyes before attempting to rid my brothers and sisters of those specks in theirs.. it's funny how people prefer to preach than practice but that's just the way the world is built.. the line dividing the good and bad people runs straight through the hearts of every single human being.. nobody is completely good and no one is completely bad.. but just means we gotta start expecting less from others and start expecting more from ourselves..
I just pray that I will ride through this storm yet again.
Amen.
Friday, May 15, 2009 - 6:04 PM
Looking forward to the humidity and heat
it's been quite some time.. haven't had the time or the discipline to update.. the furthest I got to was the www.blogger.com page.. but well today something pushed the inertia out of the way for me to update.. a short one no doubt, considering I've got quite some lectures to catch up with..
but right now, we're 5 weeks to going back! I'm so psyched up I'm actually looking forward to the exams because that just means nearer to going-home day! can't wait to go back to friends and family.. where I don't have to force a smile on my face every day even when I am weary, where I can be truly myself without the fear of being judged, where I can love and be loved in return.. HOME!! omigoodness.. that just sounded so cheesy.. hahaha! but embarrassingly, that's really how I feel.. seriously, I don't want to bitch.. and I hate the fact that it happens to be an area of weakness in me.. so the more I have to actively suppress it.. so now, I am working on completely eliminating the act of bitching.. hopefully it will soon progress to eliminating the entire thought of it..
I mean who cares if someone always does something to you that makes you wish like strangling him/her.. bitching about it won't make him/her stop doing it.. you know, I remember a quote: "If a problem has no solution, then it's probably not a problem to solved but a fact to be dealt with." so yea just got to deal with it.. just that at the same time, we can just console ourselves with the knowledge that he/she obviously doesn't give a damn about you/your feelings/your life.. so yea we just deal with it..
so well, it takes the presence of I-thought-I-knew-you-but-ok-maybe-not "friends" to bring out the real important people in your life.. so I guess we can give thanks for everyone, friends or the "bb" friends..
but well, I love you guys! coming home soon!!! can't wait! =)