Thursday, February 19, 2009 - 12:04 AM
Of Paos and Pao papers
something amusing that ruth told me to post on my blog..
A few doctors were discussing about a complications case and Dr A. mentioned that the patient had complained that he felt hungry so the houseman bought him a pao, speculating that the pao may have been the source of problems. Then Dr B. commented jokingly, "We always blame the houseman, don't we?" Dr C. replied, "No, no. We always blame the pao." To which Dr B. said, "Oh, you mean there's a difference?" Then laughter.
Let's face it. It IS funny.. and ruth commented that if housemen were paos, we'll be the paper below the paos. Or worse. Well.
In a totally different context, I'm totally hooked on Always Ready, that canto drama.. and I'm so pissed that I wouldn't be able to watch the entire series on channel u.. so resorting to tudou.com.. but arg should have started watching earlier.. now I have almost 10 episodes to finish before saturday. Or rather before monday. Just that from Saturday onwards, my internet connection speed would become snail pace.
Had dinner at sushi tei today with liwen and cheryl. It was nice =) but seriously cost a bomb. Felt bad letting them treat me. Before going for dinner, went to nus to meet them. As I walked along the road to LT20, kind of felt a little nostalgic. and then standing outside PS room, seeing a few familiar faces (some awkwardness no doubt - not sure what to say). Feels good though. That I was part of these once. As I navigated easily along that familiar road.
Ah I wanna finish watching Always Ready. All that excitement about blueberry cheesecakes vs. tiramisu has its addictive elements indeed. The secret of TVB's success.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009 - 10:21 PM
lucky I'm in love with my best friend
no i don't mean it.. just that this song is stuck in my head.. ok that was totally random. But they say that singing out loud/writing/talking about a song stuck in your head helps to relieve the negative effects.
maybe because this hol has dragged on for kind of long so I'm really procrastinating packing and getting ready to go back.. in fact, the past few days, as if to try to squeeze as much entertainment into my system before I have to leave for tv-less days, I've been staring at the idiot-box for an extra amount of time.. so watched amazing race straight off satellite like at 9am in the morning, and like survivor (also straight off satellite) at like 3pm..
not to mention the channel 5, 8, U dramas.. but seriously, the channel 8 9pm show (something about dream catchers) is interesting.. not in the drama sense more in the can-get-to-see-fascinating-planes-stuff sense.. interesting that they use scope-like stuff to look into those engines stuff! but disappointing that elvin ng has so little screen time..
and this other channel U canto drama about helicopters and stuff.. Always ready. yea man. and I still laugh to myself when I think of the scene where this couple broke up over the guy (Ekin Cheng) buying the girl a tiramisu cake, not realising that she prefers blueberry cheesecake. Er like wow. now I realise how ruth can make all her canto drama reenactments sound so exagerating -- by telling exactly what happens. well chris lai looks really good here =)
ah well, soon these drama would come to an end. But well will look forward to the next time I can come back for my tv.. haha! and fast broadband connection. The few things I would miss. Not to mention all my friends, family and also some other people haha!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 - 9:31 PM
random stuff
There's this write-25-things-about-yourself-then-tag-25-people things raging through facebook. Thought I'll just join in the craze just that I have no idea how to post a "note" and tag people in it so I decided to write it here haha!
1. I am right now racking my brains on what to write in this list, not because I can't think of 25 things but because I can't choose which 25 things! haha!
2. Writing in this blog always reminds me of ruth (probably because she was the one who pushed me out of inertia to change my blog and update). So I shall start of the list with something related to her. haha! yep I truly enjoyed and miss those times when ruth would tell me all about some canto drama she watched, from the beginning to the ending... between classes, during breaks/lunch in rj canteen, walking to mrt station, etc etc
3. I wanted to be so many things when I was a kid. From the usual teacher, nurse, actress, etc to the not-so-usual policewoman, firewoman, even fighter jet pilot!
4. I once went through the phase of having all things pink. Looking back, it was gross...
5. I have a habit of scratching my nose when I'm thinking hard.
6. I used to have this bad habit of pulling at my eyebrows until I realised I better stop or I might have no eyebrows left.
7. I can crack almost every joint in my body. I even taught yanyan how to crack the hip joint. (If anyone is interested, can come and approach me.) But the negative effects are already setting in - backaches, here-aches, there-aches. So yea unadvisable.
8. When I feel sleepy, I need to stretch my eyelids. You didn't read wrongly. I just use my index finger and thumb to pull my upper and lower eyelid as far as possible so I can open my eyes as wide as possible.
9. I dream of getting a labrador retriever.
10. I also dream of getting a Mercedes Benz SLK.
11. I want to learn horse-riding.
12. I don't enjoy shopping. I prefer to know roughly what I want, then go there and get it. Don't like to walk around without anything in mind.
13. I eat apples to stay awake. Since coffee gives me a horrible feeling like I'm about to suffer a heart attack. And for some reason apples work for me. But effects not very long-lasting. So during exam periods, I can eat 4 apples a day.
14. I love my carbs... really... no matter how much I want to loose weight, I can never give up my rice...
15. I don't like snacking on crispy things like potato chips and biscuits. I feel a sorethroat at the back of my oropharynx just by looking at a bag of Lays... but oh chocolates, that's a different story..
16. I wore braces for 4 years and retainers for 2 years.
17. I have this secret attraction to guys with toned forearms. And when they wear long-sleeved, dark-coloured shirts, with sleeves folded up to the elbow. Hehe!
18. I HATE PEAS!! AND CORNS!! and carrots (except when they're raw and cut in thin strips.) So I can spend like 10 minutes picking out the peas, corns and carrot cubes out of my fried rice.
19. My good hair days and bad hair days alternate even though I don't do anything different with it. Same shampoo-ing, same conditioning, but having a good hair day today means tomorrow it'll be like hell-breaks-loose...
20. I like singing in the bathroom. Ok no, I like singing everywhere I go. But it's frustrating when I get a mental block and I just can't remember a part of the lyrics.
21. Everytime I watch my Japanese dramas, I always wish my room can be just like the rooms of the main characters.
22. I need to go to sleep hungry. Helps me sleep better.
23. When I was eight, I went to sleep everyday with my right index finger poking at my right cheek and my left index finger poking at my left cheek, believing some variety show, that I can get dimples.
24. I tend to sleep cross-legged. Think it's got to do with keeping my feet warmer. So I often wake up and stand up from bed but fall to the ground immediately.
25. I hate wasting time and unproductivity. But that's basically what's been happening to me the past 2 months.
Yea that's it. not very interesting. People who konw me probably already knew all these haha! oh anw ruth!!! speaking of clipping nails in public!! today on the bus, this man behind me was clip-clip-clip-ing his nails! GROSS! had this horrible imagination that his cut nails are flying into and getting stuck in my hair! kept running my fingers through my hair.. was having goosebumps all over! YUCKS!
Friday, February 6, 2009 - 9:44 PM
A REAL List of Who Is Who in the Hospital
Just happened to come across this on some forum. Makes sense doesn't it? HAHA!
A Professor
Leaps tall buildings in a single bound
Is more powerful than a locomotive
Is faster than a speeding bullet
Walks on water
Gives policy to God
A Senior Consultant
Leaps short buildings in a single bound
Is more powerful than a shunting engine
Is faster than a speeding bullet
Walks on water if the sea is calm
Talks with God.
A Consultant
Leaps short buildings with a running start and favourable winds
Is almost as powerful as a shunting engine
Is just as fast as a speeding bullet
Walks on water in an indoor swimming pool
Talks with God if special request is approved.
A Fellow
Barely clears a pre-fabricated hut
Loses a tug of war with a locomotive
Can fire a speeding bullet
Swims well
Is occasionally addressed by God.
A Registrar
Makes high marks on a wall when trying to clear tall buildings
Is run over by a locomotive
Can sometimes handle a gun without injuring himself
Doggy paddles
Talks to animals.
A Resident
Runs into buildings
Recognises locomotives two times out of three
Is not issued amunition
Can stay afloat with a life jacket
Talks to walls.
An Intern
Falls over doorsteps when trying to enter buildings
Says 'look at the choo-choo'
Wets himself with a water pistol
Plays in mud puddles
Mumbles to himself.
and finally the VIP........
drumrolllllllllllllllllllllllll
A Registered Nurse
Lifts up tall buildings and walks under them
Kicks locomotives off tracks
Catches speeding bullets in her teeth
Freezes water with a single stare
Is GOD!
haha ok it just sounded so funny I had to post it here.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009 - 7:00 PM
Looking Back
I've been thinking... which is something I haven't been doing much of in the last 2 months... but over the past few days, as I reflect on my dismally unproductive holidays, I feel the past coming back to haunt me...
The question that has plagued me for so long - "To stay there or to come back?" I really don't know. I've always been one who likes to be up on my feet, pushed by an adequate amount of pressure. But unknowingly, studying in Perth for close to 1 year, exactly what I was afraid of happened. I have actually gotten used to that pace of life. So much so that I thought I was enjoying myself, have forgotten all about that adrenaline rush addiction that I have. That sense of accomplishment that comes after completing a mountainload of things under the pressure of time.
Such uncertainties pertaining to my future. Do I want the slower paced life that one can so easily get used to. Or the fast paced stress-driven adrenaline-pumping lifestyle that I always had an inexplicable addiction for.
These have all the more triggered some regrets which are still nagging at me from the back of my mind. Regret is one of the most useless emotions in the world. It does not help the current situation but yet has the wonderful power of consuming you. And I refuse to let it affect me that way. So I hate to regret anything. I hate "if-only"s. I move on. Accept reality and the cruel fact that life doesn't always turn out the way we hope it to.
But as I come face to face with my delimma, that frustrating sense of regret comes back to say hello. If only I had done better during my NUS medicine interview. If only I obtained those qualities that the interviewers were looking for (or so they claimed). If only I wrote a more impressive essay. If only I wasn't stupid enough to believe it when they said that they are simply looking for sincerity and real passion. And that is enough for the chain reaction of if-onlys.............
If all these had happened, and I am studying medicine in NUS, I would have been spared the regular feeling of guilt of ripping my family's financial resources to feed my ambition... and also spared the delimma I face...
Forgive me if I am a bad case of a walking contradiction. On one hand I know that I would not be who I am today, had I not have the chance to go overseas and experience so many things. On the other hand, I resent the fact that I have to learn such lifeskills through such a winding path. Couldn't I just have POSSESSED them? instead of having to GAIN them? Which also brings me to another question - Are doctors born or made?
I have gained much insight over the last 2 years. More than ever before. Insight about the realities of life, about my strengths and weaknesses, etc etc. Valuable insights. And as I confront my weaknesses, I have also gained strong determination to improve on them, motivated by my failed medical interview. Something I never want to happen anymore.
What a great price to pay.
And I can't help but feel a slight sense of belonging-to-nowhere. Not being in the Singapore system, I feel inept when plunged into it. And not being a grow-up-in-Aussie-land, I feel uncertained about whether I can have the kind life I always wanted there.
But well, that's enough whining. Blogging about this has helped me feel better. No, it hasn't cleared the delimma and guilt. But it has definitely helped push these aside for the time being.
I paid a high price (or should I say my parents did) to learn. I don't want to ruin anything anymore.